bullying_begone | When you can't seem to get over online bullies even after all these years

Recently opened a deviantart account just to follow what tickles my fancy, and furry artists who seemingly you can't see anywhere else being they choose that site as their own little hub to be known from.

I also immediately began blocking accounts of awful people I used to talk to, and others who simply liked messing with me. Not only there, but also in other places online when I was more active. Some of said accounts belonging to people I once used to consider friends, and whom I had a fallout, or found out they were just pretending to care.

It gets me highly anxious to see their accounts, whether they're active or not. Just seeing their names online bringing the worst things I went through back then when I had thought the Internet was a place where you mattered.

I simply don't want to ever see them around me anymore. I try living my life outside online dealing with very serious problems which I don't wish to have such awful people come in and make it even worse.

I know I should just get over it. I can't seem to.